I listen to a lot of music. There’s over 20 artists who I love, which is why I create monthly Spotify playlists. I’ve loved listening to music since I was a little kid. I would pop my CD into the CD player and fall asleep to instrumental or Christian music. When I got older, I had a huge tape player that also had a radio. I would listen to the radio while doing my homework, before falling asleep, or just to black out anything negative that I had happened that day. Eventually I graduated to an iPod, then a kindle fire, and finally a smart phone. A few years ago, I discovered Spotify and that was what made me go from five favorite artists to over 20.
Music is and has always been my escape. It helps keep me focused and makes me feel better when I’m scared, anxious, or dealing with my depression. I can’t drive or do homework without it. I love music because it’s always been there for me and always will be.
Out of the hundreds of songs I have heard in my lifetime, one song will always be my favorite and no other song will ever take its place. It is “Who Says” by Selena Gomez. This song means a lot to me because it has saved my life numerous times.
I have dealt without Chron’s disease, social anxiety, and depression for eight years and I had the worst time with all three. There were so many nights where I would just cry for hours because I didn’t know how cope with my Chron’s specifically. But, when “Who Says” came on, I felt a certain type of consoling that other songs just couldn’t provide.
The lyrics “You have every right to a beautiful life” always stick out the most to me. They reminded me that even though I am dealing with a lot of struggles, I deserve to be happy. When your mind is telling you that you’re a loser who doesn’t deserve to live, hearing someone say that thought isn’t accurate makes all the difference.
Selena Gomez has always been my favorite actress for nine years. I loved her since her days on Wizards of Waverly Place and her music never fails to put me in a good mood. What means the most to me ishow she has dealt with her Lupus diagnosis and the challenges that came with it. I know that she most likely had a tough time coming to terms with it, but I admire how open she is. Selena is not afraid to tell her story and also does all she can to support organizations that raise awareness for Lupus. Her openness helped me to accept my own diagnosis.
Selena Gomez taught me the greatest lesson when I was first diagnosed and that is to love yourself for who you are and don’t let people change you. “Who Says” came out a year after and I feel like it came at just the right time. Even though it didn’t solve my mental health issues, the song has given me just enough strength to keep living over and over again.
For eight years, my life has primarily been a mess and my mental health was never great. However, “Who Says” reminded me that I have something to live for. Now, I am in a better place and know that, but it still nice to have a song that will always mean the world to me, no matter how many times I replay it.